Food For Thought.

what do you think of me now? how does it feel like? painful isnt it. there so much that you dont know yet you think you do. what is there to say, when things had gotten this bad. what is there to do, when seeing some people, makes me mad. what do i do to make it right? or the bigger question is, do i want to make it right. im shying away from the truth and thats the way i intend to keep it. but what if it only causes a much more of painful sting? but if i dont go with my guts, i wouldnt know if it would turn out to be a beautiful macrame for me. i wont know. but, now, im unwilling to fulfil what i pormised. my concience was overpowered by the pain i was taken down with. im unwilling to sacrifice no more for someone who treats me that way, of a mere human. and not a friend to be recked by. i got too little back for what i had given, yet im willing to give away that, and live like im suppose to. but what is there to be thinking about now. when all my troubles had gone away, giving me a clear path. but its not time to reconcile.. there too much eagerness to tear you down in me.. let it cool of, and maybe have a better beginning..

the real question is,

Am i the bad guy or the good guy?

Fead This.

To me, it has always been about you.

but now, when its about me, i don't think i need you to care.

I've took too many blows,

and all i wanted to know,

was how you wanted things to go..

-Fead up"

history seems to repeat itself several times..

I dont know you..

talk to to me when you know you can talk to me..

sometimes the words you say tear me up,

you sometimes make me feel that you dont care anymore,

with your indirect signals, from conversations to networking,

your smile, nowadays, seem to be vague,

im trying to tell you, im feeling insecure(very),

yet no words of yours could make me feel any better,
they way ' i love you ' is said, makes me feel like its forced,

forced to make sure i dont go anywhere,

if that is really your intention, tell me,

im not a toying around no more,

if you want to make anything work, do it,

dont tell me you're sure of what you want with bad intentions,

i want to be myself where-ever and when-ever,

not something which is put to use only when needed,

the longer we stay like that, the further i will walk...

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think, before i put my life back into motion..

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this i post with much pain,

dont take it too seriously,

just opinions from the heart.

Wish i could smile...

Then whats stopping me?..

Reminiscing

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain
So explain to me, how it came to this
Take it back to the night we kissed
It was Dublin city on a Friday night
You were vodkas and coke, I was Guinness all night

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on
Is try to take it back

Before it all went wrong
Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

There was a time, that we'd stay up all night
Best friends talking till the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to loose, but so much to gain
Are hearing me? Cause I don't wanna miss,
Set you a drift on memory bliss
It was Grafton Street on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you where mine for life

We we're thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

If the clouds don't clear
Then well rise above it, well rise above it
Heavens gate is so near
Come walk with me through
Just like we use to, just like we use to

Lets take it back
Before it all went wrong
Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Lets try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Get it?

Walk my shoes, just to see

What it's like, to be me

I'll be you, let's trade shoes

Just to see what I'd be like to

Feel your pain, you feel mine

Go inside each other's mind

Just to see what we find

Looking shit through each other's eyes

-out-

Time Won't Let Me Run

Love is never wanting to lose faith,

never wanting to give up,

and never truly moving on.

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Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart,

that they feel the same..