Get to Know ME?

Before you people start thinking negative, i got this from the internet thru my friends blog. its a test to get to know yourself better. this is what it said about me.

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


Try it yourself. http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Celebrations?

so yesterday, the cheerleading captains decided to celebrate with each other. but guess what? not many people turned up. well its normal for them. cause some goodie goodie ' kids ' are not allowed to come. but its already a normal thing for all of 'our' group members to come.

the day started with me going to volleyballl training in the morning. but after a few games, the urge of playing was not there anymore. so we played quite alot of tensed games cause our coach was not happy with the way we were playing. well, what ever, he'll get over it.

after that my dad came late to pick me up. so i reached home a quickly headed for the showers, changed and told my dad i had to go. everyone was actually not there yet, but since Jo' was there alone, might as well go early to teman her. i was actually alone, but i didnt know my 'mum' , hana, was following me. so at 1 point i turned back cause i thought i was heading in the wrong direction and BOOM! she shoved her hand right up my face and said ' HI ! '. i was kinda scared cause...

1. i thought no stranger would do that.
2. i didnt know hana could scare me

but soon after, hana and i went and met Jo' at McDonalds. we were walking around cause ' it burns calories '. Girls.. but after walking for just a few minutes, Drew called Jo' and said he arrived. we, of course had to pick him up. Boys will be Boys, so me and Drew brought the other two to watch us play pool while waiting for the others to turn up. Soon after, Matt arrived. we played and we played till Adam and Daus' came. Adam left us for his personal reasons while Daus' hung around to play with us. Then it was time and we had to leave for the LUNCH.

we reached there first and many people didnt turn up anyways, so we started to order and started munching down first. but since Aisyah arrived later than us, some of us had to wait for her to finish her food before we could leave. and i forgot to mention that while eating, Matt, Jo' and Drew were salting each others food. Drew's food turned out to be really salty as he claims it to be.

Then levia turned up and we headed for the pool place again, as usual. but i was getting kinda bored of pool cause i keep losing. but anyways, Aisyah and Levia was first to play. they played for half an hour or more! the balls just refused to enter ( or maybe they just suck). no offence guys. and Jo' and hana had to go off somewhere to have a ' girl talk '. well i was suspicious of course. But when Jo' came back, she pulled me aside and gave me a necklace with a ring pendent that has ' JO (heart) Jin ' on it. i was seriously stunned. i dont really expect her to buy it for me. And i was so speechless that i forgot to say thank you. but if she's reading this, i am really happy with it and i appreciate it alot, thank you.

and since everybody was bored, we suggested a movie. but we didnt have any idea what movie to watch, so ' Race to Witch Mountain ' was our only choice. the movie was kinda boring though. but Jo' was beside me. so it doesnt really matter.

Soon we had our dinner. It was at Sakae Sushi. i didnt have anything much to eat cause i was too tired to even eat. but then, news broke out that Rachel's there. well, i didnt have anything to ask or say when we went and met her. When it was kinda late, Matt left, then followed by Jo' and Drew. So it was me, Khai Teq and Azrai with Rach'. Being me, i felt my presence was not wanted so i left the group and told Azrai and Khai Teq to call me when their done cause they are following me back. And then they were done and we left. i guess everybody was exhausted when they got home....

Love Bug Never Bitten Me This Itchy.

She could say she's happy. but im confused on wether she means it..

i know it seem emotional and all but its just that someway or somehow i feel left out for some reason. See, since me and Joanne were together everythings been great. and after everything that happened in the previous post, the whole day with all our friends, i seem to really feel like im not doing enough for my special one. everyone seems to have a better chemistry with her than i do. they make her laugh harder than i do. they seem to find the right words at the right time to say to her way more thatn i could. they make her feel occupied with something more than i could. i have a feeling im not standing up to my responsibilities or what not.

i could make her happy, i could make her smile/laugh but just not the way they do to her. i could make her feel like my presence is there but not as much as how her friends could. it may seem confusing. well it is. i wished i was all my friends and myself combined to be a perfect guy for her. it seems to me that im not the ' Oomph ' in her life to make her happy. .. i just want to do more to make these feeling of jealousy subsize and make me feel satisfied about myself..

Happy Moments Don't Last Forever.

on Monday, which was yesterday, seven of us took the KTM to Seremban to see Ms. Vasugi (our former language teacher). the day started of early with me leaving the house at 6:50 am to go to Azrai's house for transport. Matthew and Khai Teq followed too. when we were there, we got into a car and left. But first thing's FIRST, we had to get breakfast. we stop at the McDonald's near subang parade to grab a bite. After that, Joanne came to see us eat. well, its not really see, but she just wanted to meet us. after eating we took Joanne's means of transport to the station.

As we got there, tickets were bought and the train was yet to arrive. while waiting Matthew had a bit of his photography session. Soon after, we got onto the train, anxiously awaiting to reach Seremban to see Ms. Vasugi. On the train, there were not that many people as expected. but definitely there were no seats. we stood for about half an hour till we reached KL Sentral. Here, we had to switch trains.

After the switching, we got on another train which had plenty of seat. well, its not really a compliment when i say i didnt expect our country's KTM to be what it is. Its not really half bad. EXCEPT for the people on it. we sat opposite a row of hooligans. they made noise and any means of disturbancce you can think of. as the train reached there in and hour or so, we got down, went out of the station and searched for our teacher.

Soon after, she found us. it was abt 10 am that time. we met at A&W's. So we might as well have a drink there. Teacher showed Matthew the way there as she couldnt take us herself as she had a tight squedule on that morning. so after a drink, we walked and we walked till we reached our destination. we were greeted into the house by Ms. Vasugi's sister. when we were there, it was quite boring. so we stareted to msg each other through the phones abt inappropriate stuff to say when teacher's sister was there. About 12 teacher got back. She took her seat and started chatting.

We talked and we talked about everything that was happening in our school to her to keep her updated. and she did the same to tell us about how her new enviroment is. She seems to miss us and school alot. and we miss her too oursleves.

it was 1:25 that LUNCH came to teacher's mind. she took us to a mamak-like shop for lunch. after lunch was our time to say our final goodbye. she took us to the station and hugs were exchanged. Pictures were soon taken as a memory till the next time we see her. WE WILL BE MISSING YOU teacher. till the next time we always will. it was hard leaving the place but yet its releaving to know that she's safe and sound there.

at 2:30, we left the station back to KL Sentral. Switched trains again and back to Subang. Later everyone decided to go to Asia Cafe for a game of pool and a trip to the Cyber Cafe. Then our dinner was there too. Soon everyone started to go back after a whole day together. Finally my parents came , took me, Matthew, Azrai and Khai teq back. on the way, we stopped for ABC at ss2 and had a stroll in the pasar malam there. then it was time to go home..

Sports Day.

let see. last week my school held its 10th annual sprots day. or was it 11?? i dont care. this year sports day was a bummer man. i wasnt really fit for the runs. and seeing friends injured aint cool. the long practices they did. and yet in the end they got hurt. it has to be hard breaking. well, in the end YELLOW house won with a lead of 80+ points. we DOMINATED this year.

SHE's gotta be happy winning the Cheerleading.
Left : My School Mum - Hana
Right : Joanne.


















i got a chance to hold the overall champions trophy.
it was a cheap throphy anyways. the top part came of soon after.


















Random Picture.
My "mum" and me.

NO !

WHAT HAPPENED
TO MY
CBOX !!

i just opened my blog today and i saw that my cbox was gone. there was someone else who knows my password but it couldnt be him. DAMN this sucks.

F ! those BITCHES

here is one of the post which i rant on people i hate. well this time is about my parents. in this post i refer them to BITCHES. here i go, 1st of all my relatives came from Ipoh yesterday. so i thought it would be fun right? but it isnt. my dad won the lottery. but the amount was minimum. anyhow he said he would buy me new shoes. and on Sunday, we went out. as usual that bitch ditched me there. so did the other bitch. i waited for the whole fucking day for them to arrive and yet they didnt turn up. those BITCHES gave the excuse that they didnt want to waste time finding carparks or walking around.

then as u know i have family issues. my cousin's okay. but his family sucks. i had to wait for his family in order for myself to get into my own apartment which that bitch insisted on them staying there. but that bitch didnt even turn up there. sitting in that apartment made me feel so IRONIC. i thought it was mine and yet they treay it as their own. guess what they did, firstly, they switched on all the lights when the sun is still up. who's paying for them not those people thats for sure. then the four air-cons in the whole apartment were turned on when everybody was only in the living room. seriously who pays for this shit? fine even if they did on everything, they could at least have the courtesy to close all the doors or windows so that the rooms cooler and dont waste electricity which will eventually turn up in bills right? NOPE. in fact they leave the whole balcony open and they front door WIDE open. WTF?!

Okay, i've surpass that. but just when i thought everything was fine. i end up eating in a thai restaurant which i have no idea what i was eating except TOM-YAM. when i didnt eat as much as used to, those BITCHES started buging me. here's the conversation.

MOM-bitch : wei, why today so moody? why eat so little?
(she bombarded with questions)

in front of everybody in that table..
ME : SHUT UP LA!

then she was all..
MOM-bitch : What's ur problem la.

ME : YOU dumbass. ask yourself that question la.

then this part got interesting. the other bitch had to do the first bitch's dirty work. she ask him to ask how i was doing..

BALLS- bitch : Boy, how are you? Okay anot?

ME : SO WHAT IF IM OKAY?!

he was so stunned that we stared at each other with a cold look. i could tell that bastard was scared of his pants if i treatened him. that was the climax of the day. then soon after he was mumbling to himself..

BALLS- bitch : let him play la. go play go play. dont need to study anymore la.
(he was all sarcastic)

ME : okay okay! i will!

then he shut-ed up for the whole night. when we reached home from dinner, i prayed for those BITCHES that they couldnt have a peaceful night to rest. whatever stated here is true and everysingle word i said was not changed from the actual convo.

That was yesterday. today i tried to get out of the house without them knowing. but in the end my only mean of transport left too early. i was suppose to follow En.Ariff to the waterfall. then i was planning to come back late. so my parents could take back their words. i hate those BITCHES so much! and DARN you Matthew! YOU were suppose to call me before you left!

I'm Gonna buy new KICKS!

Picture Of JORDAN.

Guess what Guess what?! im gonna buy new shoes! it may not be a surprise but whatever. this time im gonna buy the AIR JORDAN XX3. this shoe looks damn COOL! but i wouldnt know how it feels like wearing it yet cause i havent bought it yet. but maybe in just a week i might get it. CANT WAIT! the one im gonna buy is defintitely not the same colour as the one above. mine is gonna be blue and white.

Mr. Harashimnaidu

Well as i promised in the previous post, here's a post on what happened to me. see, i have this teacher who is freaking fat but God only knows why is he our sports organiser. his name is Mr. Naidu. This fucking bitch here thinks he knows all that about anything. see, before the 400m event took place, there were complications. Mr. Naidu here typed the name list for yellow house wrongly. and by carrying out orders for the team i got pussy scolded. That bitch pussy scolded me. here's what happened in detail.

i ran to the tent beside the track to clear the names and changed them. i told another teacher of mine to change the names THEY WERE WRONG. then that fucking Bitch-Nu, who thinks he is all gangster, came and said in a kurang ajar way, ' Apa salah?! Huh, apa salah?! ' i was keeping my cool, as my class teacher was there, and he wasnt complaining like a drama queen abt the names. then Bicth-Nu here said ' Saya malam tadi baru type nama ni tau? apa salah?' and there i was thinking to myself, if the names were typed by him so carefully, Bitch-Nu didnt even spell my name right.

then he thinks that he was so right. i wasnt even talking to him in the first place. and his fucking busybody-ness had to just get involved. in the end the names were eventually changed cause BICTH-NU TYPED IT WRONGLY! that fuckhole. soon i was thinking of a way to hurt him real bad and seemed innocent for it. the planned has been confirmed and might be carried out as soon as he thinks. so watch out BITCH-NU.

Labelled YELLOW.

today was a great day. and about my previous post, me and her are okay already. and since that inccident we have just tried to forget what happend. back to my topic. today, my school took some of us to the stadium where we have our sports day to reherse for the acctual day and some final track events were also held today. it started with the 400m. i dont know abt the girls but i do know about the guys. Vivishen ( blue ) won the race as expected but heart felt respects to Hadzwan and Daniel for trying. you guys did great. after that event we all practiced for the march pass.

after that the 4x400m relay took place. at that time an inccident took place that i will never forget neither am i gonna forgive. i'll blog about it in the next post. but in this event SHE took part in it. eventhough she didnt win, she wasnt last. and no matter what the results are, i am proud of HER. after her race, it was mine. i was the last person for the relay. thanks to my teammates, Hadzwan, Adam and Daniel, i had a big advantage. the second team wasnt even close all i had to do was maintain the lead and win. and thats what happened. GO YELLOW. well done guys.

after that we went back to school with big smiles on our faces...

Dont do this..

after the last post, i've just commited SUICIDE. not literally but i wished i could have. i cant stand to have the thought of the one that i love most leaving me. i dont want you to leave me without a mutual reason. i love you. and this might be the first time i felt this much pain. i dont think its right for us to suffer this way when all we have feel so right. at this point of blogging, im not even sure what gonna happen between us. hopefully its not over. i dont want to ever stop loving you. dont make me feel that i have to...

Accomodating for TWO.

heres another problem. i have gone true serious crap before and dun think i deserve to go through it before. and as my friend , Matthew, said to me before " What doesnt kill you, makes you stronger." but see, there are still complications in my life that i just cant solve. and this one is just a massive blackhole.

it is something that i have no control of. it is also something that i have no right to voice out about. see, SHE has me and she also has her bestfriend. and her bestfriend kinda dislike me for certain reasons. its not that i dont want everything to be fine. its just that i cant do anything about it. everytime i open my mouth for any reason, it just makes her (her bestfriend) hold a bigger grudge on me. i would want both, HER and her to be fine. but its just that she wouldnt listen to me.

what im trying to say is that, i dont want anymore complications. and i want HER to be happy with everything in her life. and its okay if you want to spend some time with her. i know its hard for you. but im not here to pull her away from you and neither am i here to be in your way. i dont mind if you still feel that disliking me is neccessary, but if you do change your mind, THANK YOU. if you dont, then at least dont do it infront of her. let her be happy. and if i did anything wrong before..

I'M SINCERELY SORRY..

Through the Phone

well, you see, im complicated. and i also like things to go my way. but it seems to me, somehow, friends of mine or hers are KINDA in the way. what im trying to say is that, when you are in a relationship, you would want every single bit of attention from your partner. and my problem is, she pays more attention to friends more than she does to me at times. its not a complaint : definitely not. im happy with everything that is going on. its just that, my feelings get disorientated. and it bothers me. but i got over that. FRIENDS are meant to get attention from her. and i dont need her attention all the time. i have just the right amount of attention i need from her through the phone. as long as i know she cares i love HER and my FRIENDS as well.