Saturday, September 5, 2009


- Currently getting the jitters.

im thinking, how much could i hold up. what is there to do, when you have cold feet. what is there to not think about, when the world is going to fall on you the very next day.. what is there to do, when time i unforgiving... what if, forever, never comes back.. and goodbyes seem way too soon.. sometimes i dont really even know what im feeling. everything in between this rotating mob seem like mumbo jumbo to me though i might die in it; being the innocent.. all i want is to be me. then why am i hesitating. im making full -hardy decisions, without even know the consiquences i have to face after that.

why cant i wake up from whatever i fell asleep into..

'sing me a mellifluos melody'
" i wanted a perfect ending. now i've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, some stories, don't have a clear begining, midlle and end. life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's gonna happen next.."

~ Gilda Radner


this was what i saw this afternoon. which made me think, so deeply... watch and i wont believe you wont feel what i felt.. i know its just a show, but it meant alot.. alot to those who want it to be meaningful.

'take a second to take a look'

a plea..

" did you say it? i love you. i don't ever want to live without you. you changed my life. did you say it? make a plan, set a goal, work toward it. but every now and then, look around.. drink it in, cause this is it.. it might all be gone tomorrow..."

Grey's Anatomy - Meredith

life KO'd me, emotionally..