Another Victory

today it was the last day of the inter-house basketball in school. it was yellow against the blues. i didnt have time to watch the game as i was occupied. but only to my concern i know that yellow won the match. GO YELLOW!. soon after the inter-house football matches began. first match was u-15 boys : yellow against blue. i was in the team, so i played. the game started really well with us scoring within minutes. then a few minutes later, we've scored again. the match ended with a 2 : 0 score.

then, then u-18 played and other games continued. wasnt paying much attention to the game at that time cause i was already occupied again with her. i was just too into the moment.

B-L-U-E.

This post i gonna be a little awkward but read with me. OK?. i have been with her like for 11 days now. and its obvious that our feelings are mutual. but 1 thing has been bothering me since. you know how couples react and how they do they're THING right?. me, im finding my strenght to carry out these THINGS. these things im refering to are like holding hands, snuggling into 1 another, holding waist and what not. See, since we're together and all, i thought these things will be easily carried out. but i was wrong. everytime when i have a chance to, i somehow chicken-out and keep my hands to myself. i dont know why. aint these types of things suppose to be okay to do with 1 another?. i just wished that i know she has the same feelings as i have to do these things. i dont want to make her feel awkward and all. thats why i just couldnt risk a single wrong move..

Paying ATTENTION : APPRECIATE

Today was the first day of assessment. i had BM, English and Geography. I guess i did my papers fairly good. but im not getting my hopes up and finding myself fail. Although people take these assessments or test seriously, i somehow can't. its not that i dont want to.

it seems to me that there are other things occupying my mind at the moment. But its not a bad thing. i have been thinking about her a lot. and she's always on my mind. she has been making me feel more confident about myself and she has been making me give it my all in no matter what im involve in. i never want to disappoint her. so for that reason, i think its only fair to do what i should do to impress / satisfy her. she makes me feel that being just myself already makes me special and i dont have to try anything fancy.

But one thing is for certain, a girl like her should be given the best of treatments and protected with all you've got. me, i dont feel like i have given any of those enough yet. but i'll contine trying.
i love her and i'll do whatever i possibly could to make her the happiest she could be.

Ups And Downs : Pros And Cons

Toady was a very interesting day. the morning started with jogathon. i thought we were all gonna start straight away after the school began, so i took a RED BULL. but i came to find out that it only starts after a few events. so i felt like i wasted a can of it. but anyhows, the jogathon was great. i got a position in the top ten. good huh?. but to tell you the truth, i wouldnt have finished the race as i wanted to if it werent for worrying abt her.

i went 1 round already. form 3's to form 5's are supposed to go two rounds. as i was running my second, i herd people talking about her. its wasnt good. she was injured and she fell. hearing this made me just want to finish the race as soon as possible to go see her. as i finished i looked around and i couldnt find her. i walked pass the office, but for so,e reason i turned around and saw a group of people surrounding someone. i ran there and saw her in pain. this was an awfull sight. i couldnt do anything about it. i have no idea what to do at that time. so i kept quiet. thinking to myself ' how pathetic am i'.. but in the end she was fine and was back to her normal self. i asked her if she was okay. she turned around, gave me smile and told me she was fine. what a relief that was.

After all the drama, it was time to celebrate Levia's birthday. Levia was upstairs as we were preparing the cake at the canteen. soon she came down and we sang her a song. after that school was back to its normal ways. STUDIES conttinued as usual ; what a bummer.

later, around 1:30 in the afternoon, it was time for the basketball matches to go on. the u-15 girls were 1st to play. YELLOW won that match ; GO YELLOW! then the u-18 girls were to play next. yellow was against blue this time. the game started alright. Levia, the birthday girl, got injured later. and thats when the drama took place. yellow and blue girls were kinda battling hard against each other out there. it was so hard to watch. they fought and they fought. SHE was in the court for BLUE that time. i didnt want HER to get hurt and neither did i want them to fight. SHE, at the last minutes scored two free throws. these points were the deciders of the game. yellow lost. and after that game some of the girls were not happy and ignored each other. anyways i congratulated HER. and i got MY FIRST HUG FROM HER. those few miliseconds were definitely a memory to remember. then soon after was the u-18 boys turn. reds against yellows. the game started reds way and red had the lead. but just before the first half ended, yellow took the lead. and from there they maintained their lead for the win. GO YELLOW!

After that game, it was followed by my game. the u-15 ; yellow against blue. we started off okay but didnt get to scored till a few minutes had passed. after that point we continued to score more frequently. in this game, i gave it all i could. i jumped higher than i normally do, i ran more than i normally run, and i also fouled more than i normally fouled. but still i managed to score a few points and made some blocks. it was a good game. the game ended and it was HER turn to congratulate me. i was already happy and what she did made me happier.

i wished her goodbye and left for home..
WHAT A DAY....

A Heart Felt LOVE

What is MINE is HERS..
And what is HERS.. its MINE..
















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I love the way you make me so happy,

And the ways you show you care.

I love the way you say, "I Love You,"

And the way you're always there.

I love the way you touch me,

Always sending chills down my spine.

I love that you are with me,

And glad that you are mine.

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And yes you always speak to me,

In sweet honesty and truth

Your caring heart keeps out the rain,

YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof

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I think of you each morning

And dream of you each night

I think of your arms being around me

And cannot express my delight

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I love you so deeply, I love you so much,

I love the sound of your voiceAnd the way that we touch.

I love your warm smile

And your kind, thoughtful way,

The joy that you bring

To my life every day.

I love you today

As I have from the start,

With all of my heart.

J-O-G-A-T-H-O-N

Tomorrow is the day no one hopes for. JOGATHON. to prepare we have already ran the route abt three to four times already. but still, my heart beats fast thinking about it. its not 1 of my favourite events at all. but the points of this event is more thatn the rest as the whole school is involved in it. But i guess im am prepared for this event.. the pictures below will tell you why..

RED BULL!

These are what me and my friends are gonna drink through out the day..

Recent Movie Watched - The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button.

At once epic in scope and intimate in detail, David Fincher's THE CURIOUS CASE OF BENJAMIN BUTTON is certainly the director's most emotional film to date (though FIGHT CLUB and SEVEN don't offer much in the way of competition). Loosely based on an F. Scott Fitzgerald story, this romantic drama tells the tale of Benjamin Button (Brad Pitt), born in 1918 in New Orleans as a baby with wrinkles, cataracts, and arthritis. Benjamin will age backwards, getting younger as he watches those around him growing older. Included in that group are his adoptive mother, Queenie (Taraji P. Henson), and Daisy (Cate Blanchett), the love of his life whom he meets when she is just a little girl and he is an old man. They age in reverse, but despite Benjamin's globe-trotting adventures, their lives repeatedly intersect. The script from Oscar winner Eric Roth bears more than a few hallmarks in common with his earlier work on FORREST GUMP: both adaptations cross decades and continents. But BENJAMIN's script or even the fine acting aren't its most impressive accomplishment; the technology--both CGI and makeup--used to make Benjamin and Daisy age are remarkable, and makes the film entirely believable, but they're certainly aided by fine performances from both Pitt and Blanchett. The triumph of technology only serves to underscore the beauty of this film and of the love story at its heart.


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To this..

A BIG THANK YOU.

see, me and her would not have happened if it werent for my friends. i guess it is safe to say that i have some pretty good friends. and in no way i would want to lose them. they gave me advise. made me feel comfortable in no matter what situations. but eventhough sometimes they're kinda JERKY, at the end of the day, they are my friends. and i appreciate everything you guys have done for me through these few years..

i would like too wish you guys A BIG THANK YOU..

O.M.G.

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Just when my day seems BAD....

SHE ACCEPTED ME!

a shoutout to you..

I LOVE YOU!

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HAPPY VALENTINES DAY.

Friday the 13th : Valentines Eve

Well as you all know, today is Valentines Eve and its on Friday the 13th. My school if ' celebrating ' the occassion with some song dedication and roses give-a-ways. I though it was going to be a good day as i was planning to ask her today..

It turns out things just werent the way i planned it would be. Firstly, i made a song dedication to her. and guess what happens?. she has a blue house meeting and went back to the senior block. i just unlucky i guess. i cancelled the dedication then and there. as break was over, we had assembly at the basketball court. this is when the rose give-a-ways took place. i was expecting to get 3 roses for her and 1 for Levia and 1 for Farhana. And it didnt make sense to me at all when i ordered a few days before and yet the roses werent enough and i was the only one who didnt get any. Yes, if you are thinking to pity me you should..

But it gets worst. after school i was planning to give her a present and with it a letter. but i kinda chickened out as from the morning i already was thinking about what would happen if i did it. and the consiquences were obvious. i just had a bad feeling about this.. and yet.. i kinda took Azrai's advise and put my right leg forward with it.. So i walked .. it was the longests 5 meter walk of my life.. my heart was pounding, i can hear it beating in my head.. soon i reached her.. i had to say it. but i was just so PATHETIC that i panic.. and all i said was... HAPPY VALENTINES DAY..

She said thank you.. and yet in my mind as i was running away, i thought to myself, ' WHAT THE HELL?!' and i thought i could do better.. i hate myself ..

and now i hear that she wants more time.. but its not the fact that she dont want to. its because her best friend has issues with me as i dated her before.. READERS : please be open about this.. And it kills me now as i have no idea what emotions to put forward to show her anymore. im confused EMOTIONALLY. im officially dead at this moment.....

What A GAME.

Today my school had its first inter-house games this year. it started of with the girls under 15 basketball. Yellow agaisnt Blue. In the end yellow house won. the next game also involed the yellow house. This time its the under 18 girls agaist the reds. I guess the streght of yellow house was too powerfull and it overthrew the reds.

The last match of the day was the long anticipated game i have been waiting for. The under 15 boys, yellows against the reds. in the first few seconds or minutes in the game we already scored. soon after me and my fellow team mates used a FULL COURT PRESS tactic. this definitely overpowered the reds. in just seven minutes, which is half the game we play, we already scored more than 20 points and the reds had none.

Soon after we played the final half of the game. we still dominated but in the final minutes the red got to score two points from different free shots. I guess our hopes of making them lose with a zero was no possible. But the game ended 40 to 2 making us the dominating team overall at the moment.

Keep it up guys...

A Day to Never Attend to.

Today is Hari Thaipussam. Its a holiday. And this sucks cause i have " Cheerleading " practice in school. The day started as i was going to school with my dad after having breakfast. Matthew and Khai Teq, my friends, were late to my house so i left for school without them. in the end they managed to come to school anyways. i had a reason to go early. i wanted to practice for basketball as i have a house match on wednesday. Anyways, after practicing alone for a while SHE came. SHE told me that my " Mother " ( that means my God-Mother) was emitted into the hospital last night. I was like DAMN. But after awhile i got to be wih her for a few minutes i guess. after that Aisyah came and i had to practice.

Later, as i was practicing, i couldnt stop thinking about HER. And what SHE'S doing. i was day dreaming. And during cheerleading, Aisyah was extra mean and she did not let us eat lunch till 1 something. Man i had breakfast at 6! then i thought to myself maybe i should ask my mum to get some food for me, my friends and her. well i guess my dad was busy so i cant get food.

Soon after, Matthew got lost and Aisyah got all EMO. i had no idea why. he went out to get food for us and yet you get angry at him? ITS FOOD WOMAN, FOOD!

Thats it for today..

(and for those who didnt get to read this original post before, well, too bad. i didnt want to get myself into trouble. but if you want to know you could ask.)

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And for those of you out there who have read my original post, PLEASE i beg of you to keep whatever you read to yourself. DONT GET ME INTO STICKY SITUATIONS.

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Recant Movie Watched - Pink Panther 2

Steve Martin continues to be a revered comedy icon even 10 years after his last relevant comedy (that would be Bowfinger), but even he knew he needed some help to get anyone to accept a second remake of the classic Peter Sellers Pink Panther films. So for The Pink Panther 2, Martin stacks the deck with talented comedians and actors from across the globe. Emily Mortimer and Jean Reno are back, John Cleese has replaced Kevin Kline as Clouseau's nemesis Inspector Dreyfus, and Alfred Molina and Andy Garcia have joined as international investigators brought to France when, once again, the Pink Panther diamond is lifted. Add in Aishwarya Rai as a mysterious diamond expert, Lily Tomlin as an etiquette teacher and Jeremy Irons as a suspected culprit, and it's a cast that would make anything worth watching.

Inspector Jacque Clouseau.
















Underutilizing its talented cast, The Pink Panther 2 is little more than a series of lame slapstick gags.

ITS NOT AS FUNNY AS THE FIRST ONE!

Got it Going.

I was wondering. is this going anywhere? and since many advise i get is very different from each other, i have no i dea who i am going to go with. Friends are great to offer a hand. and me, i started giving CLUES or ideas to show her i have feelings for her. i guess its obvious already. but who knows if she would push me away anytime soon.


As this momentum builds up, im going to slowly increase my fair share of care to her. letting her know that i am serious and not here to mess with people.

For all you know, we might be together as soon as you think. that will surely be a happy ending but who knows what she's thinking..

Still hanging on a thin thread of friemds advise..
Thanks Guys...

Im Gonna Be Frank.

This girl i have been talking about lately on my blog. Do you think i have a shot?. She cute. She nice and sweet. She never really does anything bad. She is like definitely every guy's dreamgirl when they come to think about it. She has always treated me nice. But nowadays it seems weird being around her. Its like everybody is agaisnt me and her. Friends tend to purposely put her name with another guy to get on my nerves. But i havent told them yet but i have a feeling they do know now. I dont know why but its so hard for me. I've got no support except from certain friends. Why wouldnt i just tell them? their friends arent they? Well i have not got much time before i tell her how i feel. Valentines Day is coming soon. Wish me Luck...

A sudden FEELING.

Hey! Hey! Hey! want to hear a poem?. well this poem is for that somebody out there and if you are reading it might be you, BUT DONT GET YOUR HOPES UP (too soon). this is just something i felt like saying. it might not be all that but its good enough for me. So ENJOY.

i want you to know that eventhough we're apart.

a piece of you will always remain in my HEART.

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I'll remember you smile your smile.

I'll remember your laugh.

I'll also REMEMBER the momments we had.

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However, there's one thing i regret.

And thats the way i made you cry as i said my final GOODBYE.

I didnt meant to hurt you, because you meant everything to me.

i know i should have tried, and in our love, BELIEVED.

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But instead i did the one thing that tore my heart into two.

I had to put an end to our relationship ; and now we're through.

I guess everything is not meant to last for an eternity.

in time we will both heal and look back on the MEMORIES.

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And now eventhough we are no longer together.

Its you, my first love, i will always REMEMBER.

well its a blog. so sometimes whatever i say here, stays here peacefully and might not be brought up in the real world. Unless my feelings over-rule me.

Recent Movie Watched - Bride Wars

Liv and Emma are best friends who since childhood have planned every detail of their respective weddings. At the top of their bridal "must have" list: a ceremony at New York's ultimate bridal destination, the Plaza Hotel. Now, at age 26, they're both about to get married; they're about to realize their dreams; and they're about to live happily ever after. Or maybe not. When a clerical error causes a clash in wedding dates--they're now to be married on the same date!-

Liv, Emma and their lifelong friendship are put to the ultimate test. Liv, a successful lawyer who is used to getting what she wants, including the perfect job and the perfect man, won't settle for anything less than the perfect wedding she has dreamed of for years. Emma, a schoolteacher who has always been good at taking care of others, but not so much in looking after herself, discovers her inner Bridezilla and comes out swinging when her own dream wedding is imperiled. Now, the two best friends who'd do anything for each other find themselves in a no-holds-barred, take-no-prisoners struggle that threatens to erupt into all-out war.

Review :

To me i think the movie was alright. it has comedy and all. the moral value of the story was kinda put forward throughout the whole movie. these two girls worked pretty well together on screen. By the way, i watched this movie without glasses cause i lost them before the movie. but i manage to see the movie somehow.

CONVERSATION.

Let me tell you something. have you ever spent so much money on credit to chat with a girl or a guy (for those girls out there) and you didnt mind?. Could you be so blinded by how you feel to do so?. through the nagging and scolding you get from your parents, you would still do it.

Well i am having this problem..

My conversation with her its just a friendship kinda chat. but every message i send her it makes me feel as if she cared. and i continue to do so as i thought this might help to get closer to her. all we ever talk is about the boredom we have and what we do and sometimes just say something random to lenghten the conversation.

But sometimes i think to myself..

If she didnt care then why would she continue messaging me?. could it be a sign of pity?. i have no idea. im kinda confused. i was thinking of asking her to be with me soon. but sometimes it seems all she wants with me is a FRIEND and not more. she once told me she dont fall for a guy that easily. does that mean my efforts came crashing down as if all i did was entertain?. Im not saying she's crushing me or she's bad. im saying at least give a sign of interest or what so ever to prevent the wrong interpretation of a slightly different gesture.

Other than that..

Does age matters?. it stuck in my head that she is the second oldest in our circle of friends and i'm the youngest. She's two years my senior. yet some of my friends which knows gave me advise and confidence to ask her. and yet i am sitting here thinking of what to do next. Will age reallly matter. she seems to like pretty boys. and i aint 1 myself. its hard when all the facts are layed out like this..

My Doggie Zodiac Predictions.

This morning my mum was telling me all the zodiac predictions for me from ' Feng Shui' books. i didnt want to believe it at 1st. but then i took time to find this out. here's a zodiac prediction on the DOG. the end it says that a new romance appears. Does that mean i have to wait till november to ask her??..

Although Dogs and Oxen are far from bosom buddies, you each get on just fine as long as you stay out of each other’s way. In other words Doggie, keep your revolutionary ideals to yourself and don’t attempt to effect any political unrest this year. Your chances for personal success won't be foiled by the Ox’s influence. He is neither your enemy nor your rival. But, if an Ox person were to overthrow a government, he or she would simply take over by military force and set himself up as dictator. Hence, Oxen deem your enthusiasm for gentle reform to be naive and childish. The Ox is He (and She) who must be obeyed. Nobody crosses a determined Ox person and lives to tell the tale. So whatever plans you had for changing the world by peaceful, democratic means must be set aside till next year. Meanwhile, your family situation becomes miles clearer in the Ox year. Those members who were thinking treasonous thoughts have been discouraged from wreaking disaster on family harmony. And love re-enters the picture too. True, cozy, sweet lasting love will show up toward the end of this year in an interesting disguise. A blah workmate or an old school acquaintance turns up in some odd venue when you least expect it. Welcome this unexpected charmer into your life. You will have earned it.

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As the year meanders forward, you may find yourself at loose ends. As you daren't raise your head or growl or bare your teeth in this heavy duty Ox year, you will spend the first part of the year muzzle to grindstone at your job. But toward June, things should lighten up at work and leisure time become a reality. Why not take up golf or tennis? Or perhaps you'd rather go surfing or conquer an unsuspecting mountain in some exotic land. Whatever you do, please make certain you don't do it with narrow-minded people who try to convince you of the integrity of the stock market or who maintain that we all came from Adam and Eve's Garden wearing only fig leaves. Your brand of progress is about what's good for all and not just what's good for the fat cats. As for religious fanaticism, Dogs deplore its very existence.

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After September, you may notice some digestive discomfort. The source of this ailment is probably excess acidity caused by stress. Rather than popping a handful of chalky medicines every four hours, why not try acupuncture? You are disquiet by nature and rapidly fearful about elements in your life which are out of your control. You may simply be afraid of losing ground in your business life or worried about the health of an older parent. Yoga and tai chi are also recommended.

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By late November, a hot new romance appears in an a weird disguise. This event alone will help eradicate your stomach's ills. Let things evolve slowly. This could be the love of your life. Or it might be a total bust. Make no commitments till the Dog-loving Tiger Year 2010.